Losing the Unsaved

Losing god was a relief. Not at first- but when I was confident about where my mind and heart were on the matter, the heaviest weight was lifted. Sometimes we lose religion and sum it all up with god, but god comes with a lot of baggage. Losing god means losing a safety net. A…

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Can I Find Morality?

Yesterday someone shared an article about morality. It compared Christian ethics against secular ethics. It claimed that Christians should be willing to die for others as Christ died for them. And they know that life does not end in death. Their moral decisions are based on god’s law and Christ’s example, so there are never…

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How Should Christians Talk to Atheists?

My husband’s parents buy all of their children an annual subscription to the Answers In Genesis magazine. I am quite familiar with Ken Ham and the Creation Museum. It’s kind of a joke in our house that we look forward to finding this magazine in our mailbox, but I do secretly enjoy seeing what Ken…

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Don’t Lie and Tell Me You Believe in God

Dear Almost Every Christian I Have Known, Don’t tell me you love Jesus and then insult me. Don’t tell me you believe in Christian values and then fuck that girl you met at the bar. Don’t say you love your enemies and then verbally or physically insult them. Don’t gossip, give in to lustful desires,…

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An Interview With My Husband About Faith Part II

What made you decide to become a missionary? Jake, who was involved in Reachout with me. He went and did Arc the year ahead of me and he was a popular kid in my youth group who played guitar. He was one of the kids who played acoustic guitar during those youth group rallys. He…

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An Interview With My Husband About Faith Part I

My husband grew up in a conservative Christian home. He was the youngest of four children. His family’s level of conservatism has made them the subject of many jokes, and we have had our ups and downs. But he had a good home life. His parents loved their children and were actively involved in their…

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The Loss of Prayer

Why does god answer some prayers and not others? Why would a good and loving god allow so much pain and suffering to happen to good people when he could intervene? Atheists often like to point to this as a way of challenging Christians, but it’s no good. I am sure there are Christians who…

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Living on the Edge

I have followed a handful of stories concerning pastors who have lost faith. I read their blogs, listen to their podcast interviews, and I follow them on social media. I like their stories because they understand two polar opposite sides equally. They have a story I can relate to. And they are usually pretty good…

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I Went to School with Jesus. And So Did You.

I have never understood the popular Christian viewpoint that god should be in schools. The debate about the separation of church and state is the number one way Christians in America like to sabotage their own cause. Why isn’t it more obvious to them? If you have followed my story you know that I once traveled…

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A Theory of Humanity

I am a Humanist. The thing I love most about the human race is its drive to constantly change and move forward. Sometimes we act without thinking, but it comes with the territory. We are curious and we need to answer every question. When one generation dies the next one carries on their work. We…

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I Hope We’ve Passed the Audition

When I first knew for sure that I did not believe in the Christian god of the bible, I had not yet lost faith. If anything, there was a period of spiritual hope. Because if the bible wasn’t true, and if I never knew god, then all those things I secretly hated about god might…

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Six Degrees from Satan

I remember exactly how it felt to believe in god completely. The girl I was then could never have seen what was coming. She would have hated knowing that a future without god awaited her. It would have meant failure. She had worked hard to build a firm foundation in faith. She had created a…

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Don’t Do Drugs, Join My Cult Instead!

One morning when I was in the seventh grade an unexpected assembly was announced. We were thrilled. We all filed into the gym where we found a large screen, stage lights, sound system, drums, and guitars. That was different. As the last group took their seats, the lights went down and we found ourselves in…

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Doubt and the Endless Possibilities

At first it was that one nagging thought. Religion is how mankind chooses to fill in the gaps where God has been unclear. That’s an awful lot of space to fill. What is the probability that one religion somehow managed to get all the answers right? Doubt has a bad reputation, but it is the…

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