No Flowers

It was on this day in 1909 that an unusual funeral was held in the small town of Ada, Ohio. William H. Morrow, a Baptist minister-turned-atheist, had carved out a respectable name for himself among his neighbors. He had offered his services as Health Officer for twenty years, free of charge; and he was President…

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Losing Time and Losing Friends

I turned forty yesterday. Thanks to Facebook, a record number of people wished me a happy birthday; but to be fair, Facebook makes it very difficult to ignore a birthday. It’s easier to take a few seconds to type a greeting then it is to dismiss its constant prompting to do so. I guess that’s Facebook’s way of keeping…

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Good and Worldly

The Christian faith teaches that we are sinful by nature and only God is good. If he didn’t work through us to reveal his goodness, where would that leave us? On our own we are only capable of evil. Humility and self-loathing would be too great if it were not balanced by the belief that God is working through us…

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A Fool At Heart: Believing God’s Not Dead

I know more than a few good, intelligent people who are Christians. Some of them have let their own emotions get the better of them. I have friends who cannot bring themselves to talk to me because I write about losing faith. I read posts by Christian bloggers who seem to have lost focus on…

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A Complimentary Uproar

There is a photo that was posted on Facebook last Easter; and again this year I found it popping up in my news feed. It shows three New York City skyscrapers lit up with crosses on Easter Sunday, 1956. The caption reads: The NYC skyline during Easter of 1956. There would probably be an uproar…

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Does My Lack of Belief Sound Crazy to You?

There is a theme I see running through Christian posts about atheists, and it always seems to come back to a lack of understanding about how differently two people can see the world. It’s all subjective…. What inspires us. What makes sense. What gives us purpose. We don’t all agree on these things, and many people…

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Jesus: A Limited Time Offer

Last week I visited a church for a work-related purpose. I was still sitting in my car making some notes when the man I was there to meet suddenly appeared next to my window. After introductions he handed me a tract. He told me he knew god had intended for us to meet that day and that…

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A Christian Partnership with Hate.

American right-wing evangelicals who like their politics are getting a rude wake up call this election season. They have been telling themselves Republicans are god’s party for so long, they actually started to believe it. Then Donald Trump showed up to shine a light on the wide range of what passes as Christianity in this…

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I Love You In Spite of Your Atheism

“I love you in spite of your atheism.” It’s a joke between me and my husband. But for a couple like us, who once gave god authority over our relationship, there is a whole lot of serious meaning in those words. We are not entirely in the same boat. Maybe we never have been. But,…

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A Level Playing Field

You may have noticed there is a rebellion brewing among those Christians in America who believe their faith is under attack. Every day there’s another story in the news about someone standing up for their Christian right to discriminate biblically or pray openly. Government and school officials across the country are taking a stand for…

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The Magic of Creation

When I was kid I spent a lot of time wandering the woods around my house. I would make up stories about who and where I was, usually involving some kind of epic fantasy adventure. I used to imagine I was looking for a magical secret world that could be found through a hidden door…

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Seek and You Shall Find Whatever You Want to Find

Seek and you shall find. This is the number one piece of advice you will hear if you confess your doubt to a Christian. I haven’t written much on the blog this week, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been having the conversation. I believe there were at least eight separate attempts to save my…

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The Possibility Will Always Remain

Yes, it’s another one of these posts. You see, I have written myself over to a corner dominated by opinionated Christians and I am having a little bit of trouble getting myself back to the other side of the room. But I do like this discussion. And I appreciate the efforts of those who want to save me. After…

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The Tiniest Puzzle of Doubt

What made me change my mind?  Christians always want to know. Forget this blog where I regularly seek out new ways to put into words how faith escaped me. The short answer is that I simply allowed myself to doubt. I know that means nothing to the person who hasn’t experienced it; I can’t explain the freedom of doubt to…

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The Things We Must Tolerate

Today’s post was inspired by Ufuomaee, a Christian blogger I have had many online conversations with. I found one of her recent posts to be difficult to swallow, and since I felt too overwhelmed by mental arguments to respond, I simply let it go. But today I thought maybe I would write a post clarifying…

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Is God Stalking You?

Christians criticize atheists for talking about religion so much, but it affects all of us. And for those of us who devoted years of our lives to god before losing him? Well, we have more to say than most. We share our stories not only to reach out to others, but to keep explaining all…

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Maybe I’m Not the Enemy

If someone desperately wanted to agree with me and had spent years finding ways to support my point of view, I would like to think I would be more forgiving when they ultimately could not come to the same conclusion. But it doesn’t work that way, does it? Not with politics. Not with relationships. And…

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Looking Back and Looking Forward

2015 was a good year for our family. We had some ups and downs, but overall we are ending the year feeling pretty wonderful. I started writing this blog at the end of May and it turned out to mean much more than I could have ever imagined. Lost faith is not a brand new…

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Did God Continue to Allow Me Happiness?

Another monthly trip down memory lane….   Thursday, January 14, 1995 Yesterday I was too busy to write. We had two assemblies in Connecticut and a midnight concert in Pennsylvania. The retreat we played at in Pennsylvania gave us each $20 spending money. Praise God! I really needed it. Today we spent the afternoon at…

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What If I Am Wrong?

What if I am wrong? What if god is something beyond our senses or understanding? Who am I to declare that there is no god at all? I suppose my atheism was initially born as a response to the popular god concepts I have known best. Had all discussions about god been more abstract and…

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